Silence

I've been thinking about practicing more silence in my life. I always get the feeling that when I talk...conflict, confusion and anxiety arises. When I talk about my worries, it only gives more power to my worries and the worry doesn't disappear, so why bother talking about it? I'll only feed into the anger and make those who are listening angry with me or even upset with me that I am complaining. When I talk to others about others, I am only gossiping. That person isn't present to speak for themselves and people aren't so black and white, we don't know what they are truly thinking or feeling. We always seem to think the worst or absolute best of people, but we don't know and the world isn't so black and white. Do we honestly think that people are so malicious? Why talk badly about people? When I talk about my opinion or beliefs, I feel so uncomfortable. Do I really think that way? Did I express myself adequately? I still ramble on and on about what I'm thinking or feeling or just day-to-day activities. But I always feel so rushed since I think people don't really want to listen to me for more than 2 or 3 sentences, besides do they even get it? Maybe I'm more confused about my conversations with people closer to me. When I talk to my yoga teacher (which is rarely) I don't have those feelings. I feel more at ease and reassured. Maybe it's because I don't talk to her all the time and when I do talk, I feel like she's really listening and understanding me. Maybe it's because she's introspective like me and we have the same passion about Iyengar yoga. I always think: why bother communicating so much in life. Maybe I feel this way because of the people I converse with are so black and white or their responses are expected. One person is always going to be arguing with me and frustrate me. The other person is only going to bring up other people and compare them to ourselves. I don't know where I'm getting at with this, but it's been an observation and thought I've had for some time now. I don't know if there's anything special or of significance, but I do know that I feel better sometimes when I am just silent and listening to others. But then again, I'm trying to practice my social/communication skills so that maybe one day I may teach. I really want to convey what I want to teach. How else can I do this but by talking? But if I'm talking to the same people about the same things and we speak in the same manner, what am I learning?