Finding the Middle Zone

The Middle Zone, I don't really know the exact word for it, but for me the Middle Zone is the calm and secure state of mind. It's not an extremist black and white outlook on life. That secure state of mind is what I bring to some areas of my life, my religious/spiritual views, my diet regime, and my minimalist lifestyle. Sure that took time going from white and then black, but eventually, I found the middle ground and am happy in that place. I feel no uncertainties in those journeys. Now, I am told to integrated that "calm" attitude in the areas of my life that I see as "insecure." For example, my constant search for the perfect career and dreaming of living in another city. These areas of my life are lethal, they bring about depression, anger, insecurity and frustration. I am unsure of how to go about this, searching for the middle zone in career and city, but perhaps I can integrate that thought into my daily yoga and Pranayama practice each morning saying to myself: "How can I find a balance in both my career and current city?" Maybe I pick and choose when to outweigh the negative consequences of certain choices. Of course, I don't do this in every area of my life, only a few. Why is that? Why those few?

Speaking of Pranayama, I was skimming through my older posts and was amazed that I wrote so much about my practice, I'll need to start writing about it again :) I stopped practicing yoga for a few months now, but am proud to say that I started practicing again. I have a schedule in which I have to practice Pranayama in the morning and am starting to read Richard Rosen's "The Yoga of Breath: A Step-by-Step Guide to Pranayama." From my last few days of practice, I can say that I am working with tension. I feel a headache after my practice and am unsure if it's just psychological tension or physical tension since I think my head isn't rested properly on the blankets. This will have to be another one of my journeys as I'll continue reading and figuring out a good daily practice in which I can finally work on relaxation and not stress about the breathing. There is emphasis in Pranayama that you must not push yourself too hard; this is a practice of patience and peace. I need to remind myself of that.



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